Failure

Then seizing him, they led him away and took him into the house of the high priest. Peter followed at a distance. But when they had kindled a fire in the middle of the courtyard and had sat down together, Peter sat down with them. A servant girl saw him seated there in the firelight. She looked closely at him and said “This man was with him.”
But he denied it. “Woman, I don’t know him” he said.
Luke 22:54-57

In the above passage Peter failed Jesus. Do you sometimes feel like a failure? I know I do.

As a Christian all I have to do is leave my cares and concerns in God’s hands and I know anything is possible. But it never fails, no matter what, once I mess up I feel like a failure and disappointed in myself and ashamed to face God. I constantly say, “Lord I will leave it in your hands, just lead me.” Then I turn around and fail, I know it is because I really did not let him lead and that I went ahead and said “No, wait never mind, I will handle it. I can take it from here.” If I would truly leave it in his hands I could never fail, as the saying goes “With him you cannot fail.”

It is of course human nature to keep control of every situation. Nobody else can handle it we are the only ones that knows what needs to be done. And that couldn’t be further from the truth.
We are all well aware of the great sacrifice our heavenly father made for us, and I know that whatever I ask he will answer.

I continue to shout out “Satan you have no control over me,” but I always open that door a little, and that is all he needs to take every opportunity I hand him, and so I continue to fail and close the door on God. I am very ashamed of this sin yet God continues to forgive me. What a loving heavenly father we have, after all that he continues to forgive me, so how come I cannot forgive myself? I guess it is harder to forgive ourselves than it is to forgive others.

We all need to try to live our lives as Jesus lived his while on this earth. If we did the world would be a much happier place to live in.

We should all make the effort to allow God to lead out lives trusting in his name and trusting that with him in control we cannot fail and do our best to not allow Satan in the door. I know I will continue to struggle with this and continue to be amazed of God’s love for me even though I am not deserving of it, and I will hope to one day love myself as he loves me.